Pressure

How far can it push you?

Suffocation. There are days I wished I stopped breathing so that I cease feeling that I can only depend on air to survive. My lungs are weak, breathing is tiring.

How long do I plan to be in hiding? How long do I need to live in deprivation and constant fear? 

I feel I won't make it. The milliseconds when I go off the edge thinking that everything is meaningless is enough to break my spirit.

The few things clear to me is that I'm the only one who can save myself. To survive is a tiring chore.